TWO of the BEST WORDS - right??
I'm learning that life/work/play/love is a balancing act - (Duh, right??)
As HUMANS, At first, we think we can DO ALL THE THINGS - so we sign up and show up. And then? We begin to give up. Because DOING ALL THE THINGS can deplete and slow down LIFE - it's an interesting thing to balance what we think we can do with what we actually are able to do. And what do we really WANT to do?
Last week, I found myself, for the first time in about 6 years, without a "day job". Keep in mind, I've been teaching fitness classes 5 days a week for about 3 years as well, so my day job was in addition to my LOVE job. Problem was, I didn't love my day job field. I have a degree in Accounting, so that's been my day job for a long time now - in all different capacities. The job was great, but the field just doesn't float my boat - human potential does! The Lay-Off at work came really unexpectedly, and honestly, even though I wasn't in love with the field, it was a tad bit insulting and threw me off balance for a bit. I was given a few weeks to close out my responsibilities and assist others in doing the same.
So I began to grasp at every other job I could, taking sub jobs at fitness centers and yoga studios and private clients - all while still working to finish out my soon-to-be-finished day job. Last week, my last day approached and I began to have real, honest-to-god panic moments - when I didn't KNOW and I wasn't SURE and OH MY GAWWWWWWWWWD, etc. On my last day, I took my final check, walked out the door, practiced my favorite pranayama (breathing techniques) in the car, and drove out of the parking lot. Arriving home, I opened my planner, and looked at all the BUSY-ness I still had waiting for me, and felt MORE exhausted than ever.
So I began to decide what needed to go. Appointments, jobs, trips, dates, people....everything was under scrutiny. Life is way too short and we don't have enough time as is. Do we really need to fill and fill and fill?
The action of balancing is also the action of surrendering -
where can I open my hands and release my tight grasp in order to feel and be more balanced?
Road trip to see family and take in some inspiration came the next few days.....I couldn't be happier with my paring down and filling up in all the right places. Going forward, I'm filling up and sharing in the goodness of my life. You can join me! But I won't be adding you back in unless it fills me and fills you - no unnecessary fillers in my life. I find myself less and less likely these days to say YES to something I THINK I should do - if I don't really want to do it, you probably won't find me doing it. It's a learned, practiced skill, though. I find myself feeling all sorts of things when I do say NO (or yes)- guilt, pressure, shame, and yup - a little bit (ok, a lot!) of relief, eventually.
I invite you to take a closer look at what is filling up your life vs. what is filling up the minutes in your planner....What can you release back out into the universe in order to be more balanced and to make way for new, fulfilling and awesome life experiences?
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